Let go of hopes and waits, all you have is now

Do you sometimes wonder how much you could have already done if you had simply moved towards the goal instead of waiting for things to settle down?

I, for example, waited all day for my will to write an assignment. She didn’t come to me. I watched Friends on Fox all day. I’m not saying Friends are bad because they’re not, they’re great, but wouldn’t it be better if I just gritted my teeth, wrote homework and did all the chores and then carefree enjoyed the series and movies?

That’s a banal example now, but you get the point.

We are always waiting for something instead of taking advantage of the moments we have.

We wait for the will to do our daily tasks, we wait for the inspiration for creativity, we wait for the perfect opportunity to apply for that dream job, we wait for the perfect moment to ask that handsome guy for a date, we wait for this damn pandemic to pass so we can continue to live. Emphasis on the damned.

We are constantly waiting for some devil.

If it’s not the last minute and if we’re not in total panic – that’s not it. We’re waiting a little longer.

Then comes that last hour, that panic state and look at the miracles – we fight over our heads because we didn’t start earlier. What we really are is idiots.

Okay, you need to take time for yourself. I think regeneration is just as important as progress, but it would be said that too much bread is not good either. No. Missed it. It is said that what is too much is not good with bread either. That’s right.

We have 24 hours a day. Let’s use them the best we know because now is all we have.

It is not worth going back to the past because it is a finished state. Whatever it was, it was. What we broke up, we broke up. What we screwed up, we screwed up. Let’s learn a lesson and move on. There is no other.

There is no point in fearing the future because it is something that has not yet happened. We don’t know what it brings us. I mean, who could have guessed we’d find ourselves in shit like this ?!

I honestly find this awful. On the one hand, it’s great that I have a little peace, but I’ve had a little peace since last March and I’m tired of peace. Give me back the chaos, please. I literally function better in chaos and as long as I have a bunch of commitments and agreements. This way I constantly think I have enough time for everything and in the end I don’t do anything. I don’t even know what day it is anymore.

And I know there are people with much bigger problems right now, but I’m in PMS and I had to get it out of me.

Let’s move on.

Future.

We don’t know what it brings us and there are definitely things we can’t influence. Especially now. But there are those we can do, and the only way to do that is to start working for a better tomorrow today.

The longer we procrastinate, the longer we wait - the longer it will take us to get to the desired point.

I’ll say it again. Imagine what you could have done during the time you spent waiting and hoping. You could already be halfway there. Maybe you could have been on target already. Maybe you could have already done all the daily tasks, created and been creative, had a dream job and had a drink with that handsome guy you like.

You can still, but you have to start. Better sooner than later.

Even if it all falls apart, at least you know what you’re up to and at least you know you’ve done your best to achieve what you want to achieve. Sometimes that is a big enough pleasure.

So don’t be afraid to start and don’t be afraid of bad experiences and mistakes because it doesn’t go without them. Mistake by mistake and here you are at the top with even more wit, knowledge and experience.

If you ask me – it’s much scarier to look back in 10, 20, 30 years and fight over your head because you haven’t at least tried, to wonder what would happen if it happened.

So let go of hopes and waits, all you have is now. Use it.